I have no doubts in my next suggestion, I really think that you should stop your addiction of gaming now, if not the consequences could or will be fatal. It will slowly destroy your life bit by bit at a slow pace like a disease the addiction will start to eat you up and you will get controlled. I have noticed that you have neglected and thrown away so many things, for example whenever we invite you to go out for meetings or events or even sport events you will always shut us up immediately without hesitation. You even threw your scholarship away just to play games competitively, you even shouted at your parents! You should really kick this addiction now if not you will hurt the people close to you or even yourself, go out more! Live your life in the real world! You should start doing some constructive things to do and maybe even worth-while things to do, interact with more people in the real world and learn to handle this addiction better if not just kick it. The only thing I can tell you is too understand your addiction better, talk to a counselour and face it in the face. Like a ma once said "Life has only 1 life" so live it well and live it to the fullest, don't let gaming addiction stop you from doing that.